"Phenomenology of religion concerns the experiential aspect of religion, describing religious phenomena in terms consistent with the orientation of the worshippers. It views religion as being made up of different components, and studies these components across religious traditions so that an understanding of them can be gained." Wikipedia, "Phenomenology of Religion"
"Man on Fire" Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeros
Only one desire That’s left in me I want the whole damn world To come dance with me
Jesus has walked through all the murder, pain, heartache, shame, rage, panic, strange the world has to throw. He did it so he could shoulder our burdens with us. So that when we feel God by our side, we know it is a God who has felt the pain we carry. When we look to God, we should see love that understands the weight of our suffering. More than the platitudes we hear from other people: "I know what you're going through," "everything happens for a reason," "what doesn't kill you makes you stronger." Jesus does not waste those cliches on us because he did not want to hear them either, as he struggled to his death.
That love that feels our pain wants something for us: wants the joy an freedom that comes from embracing it. There is hope, there is love that encompasses our pain. That's our Easter: Jesus came through all his suffering to rise from the dead, defeating evil, opening heaven. What happens if we let Jesus do that? If we come dance with him?
There's no lyric video for this, but you can read the lyrics here.
This song is a little happier than my usual choice for Holy Saturday. Jesus is in the tomb, yes? The disciples are scared! We, however, know the next part of the story. We know "something beautiful's gonna come." Jesus has resurrected! He did it 2,000 years ago.
If that is true, though, why are we miserable so often? Why do we question the goodness in our lives? Why do we cheat, lie, steal, fight when our Creator became human to die and rise from the dead for us? If we really, truly, embrace, inhale, believe in the resurrection, how could we be less than joyfully hopeful?
We are in the tomb.
My oh my, what a wonderful day We're having, we're having Why, oh why, are we looking for a way Outside it, outside it
Of course, even a perfect person could not be blissful all the time; that is ridiculous and, well, boring. There are times when we need to be sad, or mad, or frustrated, or afraid, or guilty, or mournful. We can be all those things and hopeful at the same time.There are things that can try to blot out that hope, and sometimes they are successful. My own struggles with depression have taught me that.
It is in those times, when deep in the tomb hardly believing that a stone could be rolled away, that the Resurrection does the work of hope for us. It exists, echoing through time, crumbling that stone so light can eke through. The total triumph of our God over the dark spaces in our lives and hearts. We don't have to be the victors; Christ is the victor and hands that victory to us.
When that darkness makes us doubt we do not need to push it away. We have a savior who conquered it. When we question the good and beautiful in our lives, we have Jesus whispering, "but maybe so."
I see the green grass below I feel the warmth of the spring Is it beautiful (maybe not, maybe not) But maybe so But if it keeps us singing
So, for reflection on this (in Chicago it is beautiful!) Holy Saturday:
I chose to put here the cover from Postmodern Jukebox because for one thing, it's great. For another, I know a few people who would never willingly listen to Radiohead. This one seems a little more dignified for the occasion, right? If however, you much prefer the uncensored original, here is a great lyric video. If you don't think what I chose is dignified enough, click here, though it is also uncensored. [This song has been covered lots of times, including Karen Souza, (real jazzy) Macy Gray, (real Macy Gray-ish) Jinkx Monsoon, (fascinating and uncomfortable) Diego Luna, (for a kids' movie!) Amanda Palmer, (worth it for the ukulele) Clint Mansell & Coco Sumner, (smooth and pretty) and Prince. (Yes, Prince! live at Coachella) So, pick your favorite musical style to listen to while you read. The song also has its own Wikipedia page.]
"If the world hates you, know that it has hated me before you. If you were of the world, the world would love what is its own. Because you are not of the world, but I have chosen you out of the world, therefore the world hates you. Remember the word that I have spoken to you: No servant is greater than his master. If they have persecuted me, they will persecute you also." (John 15:18-20)
This is the reading for the third Station of the Cross, Jesus falls the first time, in the Barton-Cotton Stations of the Cross: A Scriptural Version. We are using this version at our church for Stations at noon today. I was still debating if "Creep" would be my Good Friday song this year until I was practicing with the students who are going to do the readings for the Stations yesterday and we got to this one. These verses from John connect so perfectly, I had a lovely "everything clicks" moment.
This song is about feeling alienated. Thom Yorke said he wrote it about a man who follows a woman around all night and never gets the courage to talk to her. Obviously, "Creep" has meant so much more to so many people or it would not have so many iterations. We have all had times when we have felt less than, put upon, oppressed, ashamed, outside. Some of us live with those feelings all the time due to gender, skin color, documentation, disability, age, acne, illness, poverty, hand-me-downs, expectations, mental illness, unpopular interests, and on and on. There does not seem to be an end to the list of things that can make us feel alienated, or the justifications people give to do the alienating.
Jesus chose to come incarnate to this world as one of God's chosen people. It is essential to understanding the story of Jesus to recognize his status as an oppressed, occupied person. While the Roman empire could sometimes be just fine for an imperialistic, militarized state, they held their power with veracity. Jesus carried not a cross but a crossbeam through the streets of Jerusalem because the pole was already there. It was always there, waiting for the next "criminal" to be sentenced to crucifixion by the governor. Pontius Pilate was particularly liberal with cruel death sentences; his reluctance to send Jesus to Golgotha had more to do with the Roman empire ordering him to stop killing so many people.
Jesus chose not only to live as a politically powerless person, but to push the buttons of every group trying to comply and trying to revolt. He didn't fall into any of those categories, the Jewish leadership trying to protect their people or the Zealots ready to stage the revolution. He was ready to condemn the methods of any organization that devalued the individual. He constantly chose to look with compassion into the faces of the lepers, widows, prostitutes, and tax collectors he met. This made him dangerous and unpredictable. Many people tried and failed to discover his angle, so they killed him. He chose to die as an alienated person. (Jesus Christ Superstar does a great job of portraying this; "We are occupied, have you forgotten how put down we are?")
It's hard to explain the concept of solidarity, but maybe it looks like this:
Or this:
The USCCB describes solidarity as: "We are one human family whatever our national, racial, ethnic, economic, and ideological differences. We are our brothers and sisters keepers, wherever they may be. Loving our neighbor has global dimensions in a shrinking world. At the core of the virtue of solidarity is the pursuit of justice and peace. Pope Paul VI taught that if you want peace, work for justice. The Gospel calls us to be peacemakers. Our love for all our sisters and brothers demands that we promote peace in a world surrounded by violence and conflict."
Jesus was surrounded by violence and conflict, much like we are today. You need only think of today and the image above to know what he decided to do; die to rise and save us all. Are we fasting today because it is a rule? Or are we fasting in solidarity with our hungry sisters and brothers in the world? Are we solemn today because of the death of our Savior? Or do we also mourn the countless senseless deaths both on our news and the ones that never make the story? When we hear the following lines of "Creep," do we recognize that in ourselves? What does that make you do: focus on yourself or see that we all share the same pain?
I wish I was special. But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo, What the hell am I doing here? I don't belong here.
Does this seem like a strange choice? It shouldn't. ;)
"No one has greater love than this, to lay down one’s life for one’s friends." - John 15:13
The story of Holy Thursday is all about friendship. On the first level, it is about Jesus and the people who were his friends during his life on earth. He prepares all week to celebrate the Passover with the people closest to him. I myself am preparing to celebrate my high holiday with friends, and I am making sure my space is ready and the food is purchased and decorations are just so. My friends are loved and important, so I am happy to serve them.
When the road looks rough ahead And you're miles and miles from your nice warm bed
Jesus loved his friends. These were the people he traveled with, the people who supported and protected him. He listened to them describe their lives as fishermen and tax collectors and widows. Some knew the Torah well and some could only listen. Any time you have been able to look around a table with love for each one sitting there, you know what it was like for Jesus at Passover that year.
You got troubles and I got 'em too There isn't anything I wouldn't do for you We stick together, we can see it through
When Jesus started washing their feet, Peter (of course) was upset. Peter always got upset about the wrong things, but gosh darn it his heart was in the right place. I have grown into a respect and love of Peter as I've gotten older. He is so faithful, so terribly flawed, and terribly misguided most of the time. Think of one of your friends who is loyal to a fault, but drives you nuts. That's your Peter. (Granted, in a few hours even Peter's loyalty fails, but he's still the rock of our Church)
The duality of Christ's nature come to a confusing head here. If the fact that Jesus is both fully human and fully God isn't confusing enough, we have this scene of footwashing mixing them all together. Just a few months ago we celebrated the Incarnation, the Nativity of Jesus. God being human. Emmanuel, God with us. I think on Holy Thursday we should call him Emmanuel more often, because here God is, with us, washing our feet. Is there a more visceral image of the Incarnation? God using water and oil to get rid of the dust and mud of the road off the feet of his disciples. Jesus is telling his friends that he may be the rabbi, but they all have the same troubles. His feet are tired and dirty, too, but there isn't anything he wouldn't do for them. Even when he goes to pray, facing the hardest thing he will ever face, asking his friends to wait with him and they all fall asleep. He still allows himself to be arrested, beaten, humiliated, and crucified.
But none of them Will ever love you the way I do
These words are for the disciples, and these words are for us. We cannot fathom the love of God; but whenever we love others it is a reflection of God's love for us. Has the love of a friend ever held you up? Made you a better person? "We love because God first loved us." (1 John 4:19) If we really allow God's love to fill us our wounds are healed, our scars are soothed, light is brought to our dark places. "For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor present things, nor future things, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord." (Romans 8:38-39) (Could you say that better than Paul?)
In a New Testament class in graduate school my professor quoted something I will paraphrase as "There is no despair like knowing that you can never love God as much as God loves you." (Does anyone know the actual quote or who it's by? I can't remember, and I think about it all the time) Usually, we can fully reciprocate the love others give us. God's is too much to even comprehend, much less give back. Think of the story of the Hebrews: they constantly turned from God's love and God constantly accepted them back. What kind of love can do that? God's constant love and mercy.
And as the years go by Our friendship will never die
A constant, loving friendship is what God offers us. A God who washes our feet, suffered, died, and rose from the dead for us. In return God does not require us to die for him, at least not physically. I assume most of the people reading this are in the US, and there probably won't be many opportunities to die for God. We are not necessarily asked to be on the cross, but we are asked to stay awake in the garden. God does ask us to live for him.
